Although the competition was getting closer and I really wanted to train hard, I felt most of the time tired. I wanted to push myself as always but that made my mood down.
– No more pressure Basia.
I stayed in my comfort zone.
And … First time since a long time … I felt happy. I felt again a pleasure exercising.
Everyday I dealt with pain. Pain in my right leg. Pain by stretching, by running. Knee pain. A bit of „do the next step, and next and keep going“ and even I was tired or without „wanting to do it“, I went to the training hall, I run, I stretched, I jumped …
Most of the time focusing on being better or ticking of the next day of training, because “if you train more, you will definitely achieve what you want”.
What a stereotype.
At some point I started to forget that I am here, because … I love movement. At some point my body was just exhausted. It didn’t want to train. It wanted to eat, to rest, to do nothing. I was struggling with my reluctance to train. I wanted to be motivated, but I couldn’t.
I decided to train without pushing myself too much out of my comfort zone. So, it started:
– Let’s stretch till the pain is comfortable, even when I am so disappointed with the results.
– Let’s run so that it’s enjoyable, even when everybody passes me, even I am the slowest. I hate to be the last one. I hate to be the worst one. I cannot stand it.
I let go of it and followed the concept of happy body when I run. I started to make more breaks. I started to talk to others more. I stopped caring so much about my shifu’s opinion.
And first time since a quite a bit of time I felt better, I felt happy. I ate more. So much more. I felt my belly just growing in my eyes. I didn’t like it but I didn’t feel hungry anymore, and I had more energy.
The question was …
If I let go of pressure to be better, if I keep allowing myself being in my comfort zone, would that stop me from improving and being above average? Would that hinder my progress in reaching my goals?
The answer for this question was like a brainwave.
It was not my body which hidden in the comfort zone. Of course I experienced knee pain and muscle sore and many other body issues and this many times stopped me from going forward.
But this wasn’t a main factor stopping the improvement. It were my thoughts and the attitude.
In order to progress, I needed to learn to step out of the comfort zone created by my mind.
Every time my body was tired, or I had a lot of pain, or I felt weak, I tended to be sad, unmotivated, reluctant … Regardless of my body condition, I should have kept my mind lifted, meaning happy, courageous, loving myself, giving 100%, or 200% and believing that I can do it, I can learn it.
The real borders and obstacles hindering the improvement are not these arising from the body but rather these coming from the mind and dominant emotions.
Problems are not stop signs. They are guidelines.