I don’t know why it seems for me like this year went super fast. Although I had moments, for example in summer time, when I was craving for a break and the time at school seemed like forever. Now, when it’s over, I am left with the feeling that there are still so many skills to learn and improve.
How come that it seems like I didn’t train much. Maybe because I didn’t learn many forms. I also didn’t reach many of my goals. I kind of felt stuck at the level I was before. Now, when I think about it, my training during all these months seems unorganized and distracted with many other activities.
Am I Too Old To Learn Flips?
In this year I had many doubts. I was questioning the sense of kung fu training. I am not an athlete who started as a child and his life is focused only on training. I am a person, who started to train intensively at the age of 28 years old with crazy goals, like learning jumps and flips and be flexible.
I really want to bring this topic here. So I am happy to write about it right now. I am somebody, who when decide sth, goes there no matter what. However, with the body it is different. It requires a lot of discipline and patient to do a trick. It becomes very demotivational when other, younger people can learn thing very fast, while I am stuck at the same level. I have awareness that I won’t reach the level of professionals, but sth deep inside me wants to learn at least their basics. Tricks which an average person cannot do. But when I try to do them, it seems very far away from reality.
On the other hand I need to think about my future and how to provide for myself. This makes me distracted in training. But again I am aware that training is not and won’t be the main thing in my life. Movement practice is one thing, other thing is my work. When we start to think about all these dilemmas, the mind gets into the attitude of failor and gives us thousand of reasons why it’s not worth the effort.
If That’s What You Want – Just Keep Going
But if we just turn off these thoughts and focus on the present moment. We do as much as we can without killing ourselves and everyday we try to make it better. I think just having this kind of attitude makes the life meaningful and gives you a lot of energy and happiness.
This is why I kept going and although, from the perspective of my mind, I didn’t achieve much, when I look at it, there are some things, which make this year very successful. Let’s focus on them.